My Life

Sigh… these few days I totally lost interest in work. I feel like I hate going to work. I am in kind of don’t care mode, everything just let it be without much thinking. In the meeting just now, I carried a very “black” face and gave my colleage hard time (partly is because he is not in the position to ask the question).

I don’t exactly know why. I acted like something bad happened on me, but in fact, it is not. My boss had told me a clear career path and it is the direction that I totally agreed. I need to start learning a lot of new stuff and this is something that I like too for adding my market value.

What’s the problem then? Sigh.. probably I just lost confidence and thus, feel like giving up? Or I was too focus and spent too much time in work previously, then suddenly collapse and need some time for adjustment?

I told myself that I will be okay after new year, after Jan 1st 2008. Let me lazy for few more days and I will be back to my previous working attitude, be energitic and with full commitment.

What do you think about this car? Lovely? Funny? Weird?… haha…

Fried rice, Chicken Herbal soup and Honey Mustard Chicken

Christmas is around the corner and everyone is busy buying gifts for their love, friends….

Same for me, I have bought some Christmas gifts for my colleages and also Baby gift. One of my colleage had just gave birth a baby girl

What did I buy for my hubby? Hmm.. not yet. I promised to buy him a PSP and now he is doing some survey to get a cheapest price. For me, he bought me a pant for office wear :P. Initially he wanted to buy me a Wii, but the price went up again and is really too expensive, not worth it.

I am forcing myself to read Newspaper every weekend. Yes, I buy “News Straits Time” on every Saturday, but I never attempt to spend more than 5 mins reading them :( 

Probably I am too lazy to browse through too many pages to get the news, an excuse that I had given myself.

Something strike through my mind just 5 mins ago, how about 15 mins reading every day, by reading online ”Today’s Papar” or “My Paper”? These 2 newspapers will summarize all the important news that happened daily, in English and Mandarin.

Hmm.. good idea. I will start the practice today but not sure how long I can last. My hunch tells me … “I will give up the idea very soon”… coz I am so so so……………………………… LAZY !!!!!!!!

I was too focused on work, I spent little time chit-chat with colleages in office except the sweet smile and few words whenever I see them. My colleage always complain that my antenna is so short and I am always the last one got to know any news. I spent too much time on work even at home and I expect the quick returns or rewards from company, but I always in disappointment.

Finally I realized…. this is not the way of working. I struggled a bit and my mood was down for few days before I realized it. Again, it back to the topic that I was talking the other day, 2 choices.

In Office
-I can choose to “100% focus on work, 0% on socialize with colleages”, OR “85% on work, 15% socialize with colleages”: I CHOOSE 85%:15%. Why? I am in managing role, besides earning their respect through my capability, I need to down to the earth and mix well with them as their friends, need to pay some attention to their life, their family, not just WORK, WORK AND WORK all the time. Or else, they will get sick of me eventually and no close bonding with them.

-I can choose to give instruction most of the time OR I choose to listen to people’s feedback, suggestion and input before providing direction: I choose to listen. Why? Their suggestion may be the BEST suggestion and my suggestion may be a lousy suggestion.

My Personal Time at Home
-I can choose to WORK OR I can choose to enjoy my personal time: Frankly, I would like to enjoy my personal time, but I know I can’t do that. So, I will strike a balance.. Hmm…. 30% Work: 70% Personal Time

-I can choose to ignore my old friends.. BUT…. I choose to look for them more often. I realized that I spend too little time with my old friends.

Hey… tell you what…. I am not just talking without actions:) Since last Thurdays, I started all the actions as what I mentioned above and I will out with my old friends this week !!

Everytime I struggle, I learnt something from it. Yeah, no one will stop learning in their life. We learn new things everyday and we are a better person tomorrow

Hey, I have learnt 2 new dishes today - Pandan Chicken and Sambal Squit

Marks given by my Hubby:
Pandan chicken - 10/10
Sambal squit - 7/10
Mix Vege (celery, mushroom, Chilli, prawn) - 6/10

Here is how it looks…. !!

This is talking about 2 choices that we have in our life…..talking about the possitive attitudes towards things that happen in our life.

Not everyone can have possitive attitudes for what had happened. People tend to blame… blame for unfairness, blame for good works not being paid off, blame company for low pay…. you can hear people keep blaming everyday. But, how does it helps the situation?

This is something that we must learn - possitive attitudes. By changing our attitudes, we will be more easily overcome tons of challenges that we will be encountered in our life. And, this will lead to “Happy Life” !!…

Yes, this is something that I need to learn. I will and I am trying….. not easy though, it takes time

Two Choices

Just now my sister called, and suggests to hire a maid for my mom.

I totally agree with this idea. My mom is so old now.. hmm… about 78 years old and her leg becomes weaker and weaker. My sis said my mom’s leg can be suddenly out of control and she have concern if my mom fell down when she is at work and no one can take care of her.

“Don’t want, I don’t want Indonesian maid, they are stealing”… haha… this is the first response that my mom gave me when I talked to her about hiring a maid. I asked “how about an Indian or AngMo?”.. hehe.. purposely pulling my mom’s legs. She said ” I only want Chinese”.

Oops… hmm, guess it will be more difficult to get a Chinese maid or else, will be very expensive. Hmm… let my sis take care of it. I am okay with her decision and don’t mind paying if my mom really want to Chinese maid.

My mom, me and Hup - A happy family !!